"Takes A Little Time"

"Takes A Little Time" by Amy Grant

It takes a little time sometimes
To get your feet back on the ground
It takes a little time sometimes
To get the titanic turned back around
It takes a little time sometimes
But baby you're not going down
It takes more than you've got right now
Give it time

As we head into Labor Day weekend, it occurs to me that I have actually been absent from my own life since around Memorial Day weekend...ouch! Of course, I've been here physically, but in truth, I haven't been of much use to anyone...and I feel pretty crappy about that (official apologies to my amazing children and my understanding and patient friends and biz partners). There are excuses, and maybe even some valid ones (the death of a close friend, the break-up of my marrriage, career-related stress, and even some minor but nagging physical issues), but what really bothers me most is that I somehow managed to lose sight of myself for a little awhile.

However, as a rough as the past few months have been, there is always, of course,  the opportunity for growth and insight to occur. The blessing of this summer for me has been that I definitely know for sure what I DON'T WANT in my life anymore...and can now focus again on what I DO WANT. 

First and foremost on that list is inner peace -- which for me comes from an absolute belief and trust that things are unfolding exactly as they should be in my life for my highest good, even when it doesn't feel that way in the moment. I lost that trust a bit, but now feel more certain than ever that I'm on the path I'm meant to be on...and am heading in wonderful new directions (both personally and professionally) which I can only begin to imagine today.

I want excitement and adventure in my life -- and to feel present, alive and motivated every day. Calm moments are good too...but I want to feel energized by every aspect of my life vs. drained. 

I want to spend the vast majority of my time with people who make me laugh or inspire me in some way. I'm happy to say this is already more and more my reality every day.

I want to do a better job of nurturing myself (this includes a long list of things I won't bore you with) and in turn, others I care about.  

I want to be an inspiration on a larger scale...whether through my current work or unknown endeavors that lie ahead of me. 

And I'm back to trusting this will all unfold as it should...for now all I need to know is WHAT I want...not HOW it's going to happen. I'm letting go of the HOW and the WHEN (that part is admittedly the hardest for me...when I want something, I want it now, lol).

SO, as my kids prepare to head back to school after a year of home-schooling, I'm heading "back to myself"....the new and improved version of myself, that is. It's "taken a little time" to get there, but I have a good feeling it was time well spent.